LOST LOVE #2:  21 YEARS AND WAITING

LOST LOVE #2: 21 YEARS AND WAITING

Fall 2013 - This particular painting has several songs associated with it.  The underlying text that you can see particularly well in the closeups are all verses from love songs. Again the swirling design indicates the movement of emotions, thoughts, and growth.  21 hearts that each represent the years passed.

Sometimes you meet someone that always stays deep in your heart but you can't figure out why.  It could have been decades ago, but somehow you had this inexplicable connection.  Whether it was your first love, first heartbreak, best friend from grade school, first big break with your career, first mentor, all of the people who transit through your life leave a mark, sometimes imperceptible at first, and only if you choose to go back and think deeply about them do you discover the lessons they were to teach us.  Even people who you only meet briefly, say in an airport or even on the street because they picked up your dropped cell phone and ran across to give it to you.  They are all here in a moment and then gone.

if you are lucky enough to be able to reconnect and revisit with a special someone from years past, enjoy it for what it is worth for that fleeting time. Perhaps you will reunite and stay connected forever, and perhaps you will just be a temporary "gift" to each other to help remember who you are, and how much you have grown in the years apart or to help you move onto the next phase in your journey.  But in thinking about a gift and giving, we all move on or discard appropriately the gifts once their usefulness has been completed.  So although this painting is full of passionate love songs and wishes - that love and wishes have been appropriately put away and the time to move on and put things behind has come.  Although, I am able to remember and appreciate the gift that was given to me, I no longer have use for it as I have adopted a new philosophy on gifts that I would like to share.

My philosophy on gifts:  This last holiday season, in alignment with my "temporal " viewpoint, I decided to give gifts to friends and loved ones that started with the letter "C" (in honor of Carenna too).  I wanted to give useful gifts that would NOT clutter ones life.  Thus, many of you received Calendars (personalized with pictures of us), Chai (my most amazing chai recipe and all the ingredients), Chocolate, Certificates and Cards (gift) and cookies (decorated by Carenna).  I fully expect the recipients of my gifts, once they have enjoyed them to discard them - after all, you wouldn't keep a 2013 calendar hanging up in 2014, nor would you keep a chocolate wrapper or cookie box...and except for the mason jar containing the chai ingredients, I hope that you will enjoy and move on and avoid the clutter that we all try to keep in check.  But I hope that any feelings of joy that you experienced from my modest gifts continue to make your heart feel light.

"However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you"

"And when you're needing your space
to do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find"

 



LUCKY by Jason Mraz

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes,
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I'll wait

                         Lost Love #2: 21 Years and Waiting

                         Lost Love #2: 21 Years and Waiting

Lucky we're in love in every way  Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed Lucky to be coming home someday.   

I WON'T GIVE UP by Jason Mraz

And when you're needing your space
to do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

SOMEONE LIKE YOU by Adele

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it.
I had hoped you’d see my face and that you’d be reminded
That for me, it isn’t over. 

Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you.
I wish nothing but the best for you too.
Don’t forget me, I beg, I'll remember you said:
“Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead”.

LOVE SONG by Adele

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

DON'T YOU REMEMBER by Adele

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness
And wandering eye and heaviness in my head

But don't you remember? Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before
Baby, please remember me once more

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong
the more I do, the less I know

I gave you the space so you could breathe
I kept my distance so you would be free
And hope that you find the missing piece
To bring you back to me

Why don't you remember? Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before
Baby, please remember me once more

TAKES MY BREATH AWAY by Tuck & Patti

Sometimes, it amazes me 
How strong the power of love can be. 
Sometimes you just take my breath away.
You watch my love grow like a child, 
Sometimes gentle and sometimes wild. 
Sometimes you just take my breath away. 
And it's too good to slip by, it's too good to lose, 
Too good to be there just to use. 
I'm gonna stand on a mountaintop and tell the news, 
That you take my breath away.

MY ROMANCE by Tuck & Patti

My romance, doesn't need a thing, but you.